in the words of faithless…

Insomnia, please release me

…I can’t get no sleep.

I guess it’s not really a new problem – I’ve had recurring insomnia since I was 18 – but as I’m getting older, the pattern has changed and my aging body just finds it more difficult to deal with!

For the past 20 years, the number of hours I manage to sleep has always been between about 2 – 6 and that is always quite light, fitful sleep.  I wake up at the slightest thing, and for years I said I didn’t really sleep, I just went on standby.

So, when I was in my teens and 20s, only getting a couple of hours sleep for a fortnight wasn’t the end of the world.  I used to do that, and then sleep through almost a whole weekend and be back up to almost 100% charge.

This has been getting a lot harder in my 30s.  And the ‘bad sleep’ periods have started lasting longer.  The current spate has been going on for at least a couple of months.  And I haven’t been able to sleep during the day at the weekend either.

Being tired is terrible, it takes over every part of your day.  You can’t think straight, you’re iritable and you look like crap which makes you feel even worse.

I went to one of my loveliest friends’ 40th birthday party on Saturday night, and it was quite nice to be awake and actually enjoying it, LOL – although getting home at 5.30am was probably pushing it a bit at my age!  I literally went to sleep at 6am and was awake again at 7.30 – so attempting to wear myself out obviously didn’t work!

I have tried all sorts of things, herbal pills, lavendar, bath before bed, levaing the radio on, no food all evening, no booze, a little booze, lots of booze, exercise, reading, not reading…all kinds of things!  The only thing I have stopped short of is proper sleeping pills, as I don’t like the idea of becoming dependant on them.

It’s even worse when you wake during the night after 20mins sleep to have someone happily snoring in your ear.  Grr!!  And even worse when other poeple tell you “I’ve never had any problem sleeping”.  that’s like telling a blind man that you can see perfectly, isn’t it?  The Man just called me and asked how I am and I explained that it’s taking me twice as long to do any work as I can’t concentrate properly, and keep having to redo things as I am so tired.  His response?  “Well, you just need to get some sleep, don’t you?!”.

Very helpful.

Anyway, if it goes on much longer this time, I’m going to have to think of something to do about it!!  Any ideas anyone?

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